nrhaziqah.: 2014

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Finally, the last day of 2014 is finally at its last hours and I can't help but think about the events that have happened this year. Truth be told, 2014 wasn't as great as 2013, but it was just as memorable to me. I finally turn 18 this year and I'm really happy that I'm of legal age (no difference because I don't smoke and I definitely do not drink) . I have also watched my first M18 movie with someone I got to know a couple of months back. I still can't grasp the fact that I'm already into the second term of the second semester into my year two of poly and I've barely survived the grueling weeks of school.

I am definitely glad to be blessed with health and prosperity and I'm thankful that my family members and close friends are healthy too. There were a lot of firsts this year and there were definitely ups and downs. There weren't any major changes in my life, I'm not too sure whether I should be happy or sad. I've cut ties with many people from the past because I do not see the point of me still being friends with people who only needs me whenever they need something in return. But for every loss, there is a gain and I'm really glad that I have gotten to know people whom I'd never thought I'll be friends with. 2014 is truly an eye opening year. It's funny whom I started the year with and whom I ended the year with. Despite the setbacks, I'm leaving 2014 with a smile on my face because I know that it's been worth it.

What better way to celebrate the new year than to create and set new year resolutions for yourself! I hope that by the end of 2015, I'll be able to grow at least three more centimeters, lose more weight, achieve a gpa of 3 and to get myself a part-time job. I can only think of these resolutions for now (because it has always been this few that I've yet to achieve oops), once I've gotten a list, I'll probably post an entry about it.

Let us all take a moment to reminisce both the good and bad times we've experience this year and hopefully learn from our mistakes. I hope that I will be stronger to endure the difficult times that will come in the next year and I really do hope that I get to spend more time with you and get to know you more, just like how I need to get to know myself more.

I'd like to wish everyone a Happy New Year and may 2015 be a more blissful and wonderful year for all of us.

with love, haz x

"What I'm saying is, in the end, everyone is alone, right?"

Hello there.

I think it's still to early to write the infamous end-of-the-year post since we still have two more weeks before the new year, so I shall put that topic aside for now. I haven't really kickstart my holidays right for now, been wasting time at home, slacking and having sleepovers. I'm just really happy that I can finally get some rest and some time away form school. I've been wanting to write about something here but looks like I haven't really have anything to talk about other than my boring holidays but I was browsing the internet and found some interesting tags. So I decided to do the tag and well, kill my time properly ~~and wisely.~~

Read on and enjoy knowing some new facts about me, sorry in advance if you already know all of them (which isn't the case) and if you want to do this tag, feel free to!

Question 1: How did you get your current twitter username?

Honestly speaking, I've always liked usernames that aren't related to my real name, like ssunfaeries, fadingtulips, radicalfaeries, lustfulwishes, frvrmblaqmnls and many more. So this time round, I wanted a simple username that reflects my name, and voila nrxhaz.

Question 2: What did you want to be when you were little?

I have always wanted to be a part of the fashion industry, america's next top model and project runway being my source of motivation. I have always been in love with fabric and the attention that models get whenever they walk down the runway, donning beautifully-crafted pieces and it gives me so much joy looking at them strutting their stuff. I aspired to become a fashion designer and a stylist, and I somehow hope that I'll be able to pursue that in the future, even if it takes me a long time to get there.

Question 3: if you could play any musical instrument, which would it be and why?

I'd really like to play the drums. There's something about the drum set that makes me go whoaaaaa

Question 4: What do you think you can do but can't?

Diving.

Question 5: What's more important: love, fame, power, money?

For me, fame and power doesn't really matter to me. So what if your famous or powerful for the entirely wrong reasons? Money and love are the most important, but to choose between the both is kind of tricky. Love can make one feel at the top of the world and it can also make one feel miserable as hell, so I'm going with money.

Question 6: Have you ever had an all-nighter?

Yes, for the first time in my life because of what? school.

Question 7: What's your favourite drink?

I think I may have an obsession with milk tea. I drink milk tea in school, at home, when I'm out with my friends and whenever I eat out. Not to forget, I do love caramel frappe too.

Question 8: Do you wear contacts or glasses?

I do not wear contacts because I don't really see the need of wearing it but I do wear glasses, only when I need to read chunks of texts on my laptop. I don't really need to wear my glasses because my eyesight is fine without any glasses.

Question 9: How tall are you? Do you wish you were taller, shorter or are you happy with your height?

I'm 1.6m and I kind of have this love-hate relationship with my height. I'm okay with my height because I think it's the average height (and because I'm one of the tallest among my group of friends) but it gets annoying when I see girls who are towering me. It'll be better if I get to grow a few more cms (hopefully I get to 165cm before I stop growing)

Question 10: What kind of phone do you have and what is your ringtone?

I bought myself an iPhone 6 in silver three weeks ago and I'm loving it because it's my very first time buying a phone for myself and that has got to be the most expensive item that I've ever bought. My current ringtone is the chorus for gdxtaeyang's Good Boy.

Question 11: Will you leave the house without makeup?

Yes, and I frequently leave the house without any makeup whenever I'm out with my family. I don't believe in wearing too much makeup because it'll slowly take away all of your confidence when you're not wearing it. Plus, I do need to give time for my skin to breathe!

Question 12: What is your favourite colour?

I don't have a specific type but I'm in love with purple hues and black.

Question 13: If you had to redo your entire wardrobe with two stores, what would it be and why?

Stylenanda and Forever 21, do I really need to explain?

Question 14: Who is your favourite vampire of all time?

Damon fucking Salvatore.

Question 15: Can you recall what you were doing a year ago on this day?

Probably doing the exact same thing I'm doing right now, surfing the internet.

Question 16: Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Yes, but not all the time. I'm only sarcastic when I need to bring out my point and whenever I feel like annoying someone.

Question 17: Do you always smile for pictures?

Yes............I love taking pictures and I can't help but smile when someone takes my picture.

Question 18: How many languages can you speak/understand?

English, Malay, Korean and a little bit of Mandarin. I don't know how to speak korean or mandarin well but I understand it pretty well.

Question 19: What was the last movie that you watched?

I watched 22 Jump Street with my lil sister and cousin last wednesday night and it was hilarious!

Question 20: What do you do whenever you're feeling upset or sad?

I'd usually isolate myself for a while and listen to music on loud volume. If I'm still feeling sad or upset, I'd talk to my friends and confide to them.

So I guess that's the end of the tag. I originally planned on only using up an hour for this post but guess how long it took me to do this....I'll give you cookies if you guess correctly. I guessed I spent my Sunday evening very well. At least after reading this post, you'll get to know new stuffs about me (I guess) Excited for tomorrow, till the next post!

Hello there, yes it's me.

As you all may know, it's finally the last day of school today and it marks the start of the term break yay! I'm kinda feeling bittersweet about holidays, firstly because I wouldn't meet my friends every single day and also I'll probably be slacking at home but I'm kind of happy that I'm able to get away from school for a period of time.

Today, my coursemates and I have this "festival" for us to showcase our application ideas to people from IT companies and from the industry. Well, let's say that my thoughts about the festival and the real festival didn't really align. The first thing when I heard the words "Wicked Festival" is balloon streamers hanging on the walls, music blasting, crowds of people entering the venue and listening to students explaining about their prototypes and all that. In actual fact, it wasn't a festival at all. The venue for my wicked festival, my classroom, looks the same and there wasn't any loud music or batucada members performing (haha kidding). I was pretty disappointed at first but then I figured the calm and soothing atmosphere was better.

We had about a month to come out with a mobile application idea and we are to display our progress for CAs. Honestly speaking, me and kai were really nervous about explaining our application to industry people because they are more knowledgeable in application making and all of the aspects of IT and most importantly, it was our first time explaining our own app idea. I was pretty psyched to showcase our application and the running prototype because I really like doing this kind of thing. I can say that showcasing (I know that's not the proper term but let's use that for now) is one of my forte.

We were told to attract as many industry people's attention and make them come to our booth so that we will get more marks and the possibility of getting better grades is higher. Alas, the both of us tried our very best to make every single one of the judges to approach our booth and sell our product. I felt really good when we managed to bring everyone to our booth and we were really confident in promoting our application idea. It was so much better to get so much positive feedback from the judges and hearing that everyone liked our idea really made my day.

After the last judge gave her opinions and wished us luck, the both of us looked at each other and at that moment, we both felt the huge burden lifted off our shoulders and we immediately hugged each other. Only God knows how may sleepless nights we had to pull just to complete this project and we had so much problems doing this project because of a dead member and it was very calming and assuring to hug Kailee after hearing so much good compliments from people who are experts in the field.

So after the festival, we met up with Nina and Nini, who were also doing their showcase at the same timing as us and we went for lunch at JEM. All of us didn't feel like going home straight because we wanted to spend the last day of school together. We just spent the rest of the afternoon sitting down and talking about school and everything else. It was a nice end to the great day in school.

Now, as I'm writing the post, I am still thinking about school and the fact that there wouldn't be any school for three weeks...........hmmmm.........

yes, we took a picture outside the classroom to mark the end of the term hehe

(kailee didn't want to join in :c but I bet ya she'll be taller than everyone of us hehe)

Hi there.

I know I said that I'll be posting an entry earlier this week but I was unable to do so. I really wanted to write about something, anything, but I didn't felt like posting it at that time. Eventually, I scraped that post because I felt it was kind of an impulse writing post and I may have regretted writing it after a few hours of posting it.

I've been really happy this past week, and that hardly happens whenever I'm in school. I'm just relieved that I'm able to find that strength, or source of motivation, again. I had to do this presentation for one of my modules last Friday and I swear to god, I seriously felt like crying in school. I don't understand why in the world slackers and know-it-alls exist. Seriously. I can write down what happened that day but I figured it would be a waste of time because what can I do now anyway to change the past.

I finally had a chance to talk to my dearest Sajidah last night. It felt really good, being able to listen to her voice, sharing her my stories and listening to her stories. I don't think I emphasise how much I've missed my girlfriends. I haven't seen them since the day where we sent Nad off to Australia. I guess about two months? Everyone's been super busy with their own commitments and it's so difficult to match everyone's schedules together. I really do want to meet them, hopefully during the holidays. Oh boy, we have SO much to talk about.

School's been pretty good today, I guess. We were released at 1pm but we had this elective briefing for year three at 4pm. Since we were good kids, we stayed back in school to (supposedly) do on our assignment. Instead, we literally lepak-ed at the corner of auditorium. We sat on the carpeted floors and the room was air-conditioned, which made the environment better. Plus, it was raining heavily outside and by the second hour into our free time, we were all freezing. It was probably my first time staying back at school to lepak with my friends and it felt good (even though I couldn't feel my toes)

Let's hope that the next few days in school will be a less-stressful one, yes please. Till the next post.
p.s. I may have listened to bigbang's songs back in the days while writing this post

x

Hello lovelies.

It's been a while since the last post, or should I say unnecessary rant.

Klaroline reference because I've missed seeing them together in a scene.

This is my first post after the new school term has started. Honestly speaking, I kinda have a love-hate relationship with the current timetable. Whatever, I'm gonna get used to it anyway. Thank goodness I'm able to cope with the new modules this time round. In other news, I've volunteered to be the class rep for this semester, probably because I needed the points and because it's an easy job. Plus, I believe some individuals can't mess with me now (I hope so)

Currently, it's home based learning and year two and three students are supposed to stay at home and complete their assignments. We are given a week off after three weeks of school and technically, we are supposed to be happy about the extra holiday. I thought it was a good thing at first, but oh hell I'd rather go to school regularly and complete my work at school because I'm so distracted at home. Not that I'm distracted at school, but the probability of me procrastinating at home compared to at school is so darn high. Also, the school has given us a schedule for us to follow and we are only allowed access to the learning platform on certain days. Two days to complete six/seven modules? I'm just hoping that I can get all of it done and over with. I want to gO BACK TO SCHOOOOOOL.

I discovered something about poly life after being here for a while.

Poly life sucks so bad. It's lonely as hell and it takes up so much time. Personally, I feel that even when I'm surrounded by my classmates, I still do feel alone inside and knowing that I have nothing to go back to sucks. It's different if you're someone who is an active member of your cca or have a boyfriend/girlfriend. Not like it's good to rush things like relationship or anything, but it must feel good having something else occupying your life other than school and family. It has always been the same routine; wake up, school, go home, homework, sleep and the cycle repeats. I'd really want to have more friends but it feels like it's so darn difficult to make new ones. If it's so difficult making a new friend, getting a boyfriend would be a hundred times worse. Nevertheless, I am very contented with the group of friends that I have now. It may be little, but I'm sure as time goes by, more people will come soon. If it weren't for Kai, I would have suffered so much in class alone. I guess it's vice versa for the both of us. I'd probably suffer more because I hate being alone in an unfamiliar environment.

Sigh, school is supposed to be a fun place where learning takes place and it's a platform to form new bonds with people. I am already halfway there, I might as well cherish it before the next stage comes. Why do I feel so sad when I talk about school hahaha I wish my school life was a lil bit better.

x

Hello there.
I've got a question. Is it really difficult for someone to stay loyal when they are in a relationship?
Correct me if I'm wrong, but it probably took so much time just to get to know your other half on a personal level and knowing his/her likes, dislikes, personality and all that stuff. So why do you even bother being interested in another girl when you are in a relationship?

I don't get why guys, in particular, would be able to think about someone else when they're attached to another girl. They'd be going around telling their girlfriend about this girl they're eyecandying about. Be in the girlfriend's shoes for a moment. Do you really want to listen to your boyfriend showing admiration towards this girl? The girlfriend would then feel insecure about herself, and she'll be worrying about little things. Worse, she'll be stalking this poor little girl's social media, in hopes of seeing any signs of flirtation made by your boyfriend dearest. Slowly, her trust for her boyfriend wears off and shit happens. Some may say that at the end of the day, the only person he'll be thinking about is his girlfriend, so it doesn't matter if he's thinking about someone else for the rest of his hours but are you really sure? Even if you're crushing on someone, don't tell your girlfriend. Just keep it to yourself.

If you really love your other half, you wouldn't bear to cheat on them with another person, right?
Is it really that difficult to be open with your girlfriend/boyfriend?

If it was me, I wouldn't want to be in a relationship where I'm thinking about my boyfriend and his well being when he's thinking about another girl and not me. And there's one more thing I can't understand. How do people get into another relationship just after breaking up? Like is it really important to be in a relationship or else you'd die of singleness??? (i just made up a word guys wow)

How can you hop to another person weeks, or even days, after you've broken up with your ex? If there's something I admire about people like you, I must applaud you being so strong willed. I was an emotional wreck after my last relationship and I swore not to be in a relationship with guys who aren't serious with me. It took me so long to change my mindset from "Why'd you break my heart" to "fuck you, you're the one who lost a diamond".

okay I guess I'm done with my rant. I just wonder why people do this, that's all.

x

hello there.
As I lay on my bed, staring at the white ceiling on top of me, I can't help but think about my family. I really do love my family from the bottom of my heart. If there was another word stronger than love, I would use it to describe my love for my family. I may have lost the most important person responsible for all the beautiful memories I made as a child, my role model, my companion, my dear grandfather. I really do wish he is still with us, celebrating birthdays with us as a family.

But I know you're at a better place and you're looking at me from above. It's been thirteen years since he passed on. I wonder how it'll feel like if he was actually here, being there for me when I brought back my o level results, or how he would have been when I got posted to my dream polytechnic.
okay enough of being sentimental, I guess I really do miss him so much. well what can i say? I'd always spend my evening taking bus rides with him to his favourite barber shop and also follow him everywhere he goes. It's just sad knowing that time passed so quickly.

I realised that I don't show my affection that well to my family members (but I do show my emotions very well, beware) hahaha and there's this particular person I have some trouble showing my affection to and it's my handsome dad, probably because he's the only man in the house and he's also the type of person who doesn't shows his affection well. < where I got it from

I've always been noticing people and I've got to say, my dad does show his affection silently, without saying it. His "I love you"s goes from bringing us to places, buying essentials, reminding us to be healthy and treating us ridiculously-priced beverages even though he doesn't like the taste of it. He's out working in the morning and the nights are for him to relax after a tiring and grueling day at work. He's been working so hard to be able to support the family and I can't thank him enough for all these years. Introducing me to the world of technology at a young age, I can still remember the first time I got my own desktop computer at the age of 5. All the troubles he had to go through just to see smiles on our faces.

If you came across this post dad, I just want to say that I really do love you. I may not be the best at showing you but please do know that I really do. & thank you for everything

hello readers!
I know it's been a while since my last post and I'm truly sorry for the lack of updates. Apparently I'm even lazier to blog about shit during the holidays. I have the tendency to sleep really late and wake up the next morning at noon. The holidays are rather mundane, spending lots of time reading different kinds of novels and staying in bed, watching movies after movies after movies. Thank goodness the new school year is starting in two more weeks

By the way, have you seen the changes on my blog? Yes, it's probably the first thing you see before reading this post: a specially-designed banner by yours truly! It's been a mission for me to fully customise my blog where people would be like “oh yes definitely has haziqah feels in it” or “her blog defines her personality” or anything along the lines of that ♪(┌・。・)┌
As a perfectionist, I probably wouldn’t be satisfied until I’ve gotten the perfect look for my blog, even if it takes a darn long time to make it possible.

So there were lots of activities that happened the past few weeks and I enjoyed every single minute of it. If you guys follow me on Instagram (if you are not following me, shame on you) you might have noticed that I posted a few pictures two weeks ago. It was my uncle’s 30th birthday and my uncle invited us to his birthday “party” at Goldkist Beach Resort at East Coast.

It was such a relief that all of my cousins were there. My uncle also invited his other side of his family, whom I didn’t know quite well. The event was such a blast, even though it was an impromptu plan my uncle had in the morning of his birthday. Furthermore, it has been such a long time since I last had fun at a chalet with my favourite people.

My family and I made our way to the resort at about 8pm and reached there an hour later. It was our first time there and we stumbled upon my aunt and her fiancée in the carpark. We then made our way together to the house. It was also their first time there and we lost our way in the middle because the place lacked signs and directions. Not to forget, the place had an eerie vibe and I was feeling rather scared for a while. After a while, we found the place and settled. I brought along a fresh set of clothes in case I wanted to stay in for the night at the chalet. Everyone bonded over food & games, and it was such a great night. It was a better night with my baby cousins’ presences. I even got to meet azzah’s other cousin, Qis, who is such a cutie.

apparently, I was in a middle of a tug-and-war with my sister and it was caught on camera oops

fyi Qis is the little girl behind me!! cute right!

with my babyboy Aryq

and my little cousin Kiki

with the birthday "boy"

nothing much, just two teenagers snatching my phone and taking selfies

Once the clock struck 2am, families made their way back on the road. My mum, dad and I left the chalet at 3:30am, leaving my grandmother and sister at the chalet, and bid farewell to Kak Ain, Abang Cik and Azzah. It was a rather peaceful drive back home as there were hardly any vehicles on the road. Even driving in the MCE felt less threatening, knowing the fact that we were cruising under water.

I woke up at 2 in the afternoon the next day and received a wakeup call from my sister, asking me whether I wanted to follow them to Jurong East swimming complex. Who would turn down going to the pool right?

And so, I spent my Saturday in the waves with my cousin & my aunts. After four hours of endless fun in the water, we headed for an early dinner at Mr Teh Tarik, ending the night with a boom (in our stomach and in my uncle’s pocket hahaha)

I can safely say that weekend was one of the best weekends of my life (ღ˘⌣˘ღ)

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