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As I lay on my bed, staring at the white ceiling on top of me, I can't help but think about my family. I really do love my family from the bottom of my heart. If there was another word stronger than love, I would use it to describe my love for my family. I may have lost the most important person responsible for all the beautiful memories I made as a child, my role model, my companion, my dear grandfather. I really do wish he is still with us, celebrating birthdays with us as a family.

But I know you're at a better place and you're looking at me from above. It's been thirteen years since he passed on.  I wonder how it'll feel like if he was actually here, being there for me when I brought back my o level results, or how he would have been when I got posted to my dream polytechnic.
okay enough of being sentimental, I guess I really do miss him so much. well what can i say? I'd always spend my evening taking bus rides with him to his favourite barber shop and also follow him everywhere he goes. It's just sad knowing that time passed so quickly.

I realised that I don't show my affection that well to my family members (but I do show my emotions very well, beware) hahaha and there's this particular person I have some trouble showing my affection to and it's my handsome dad, probably because he's the only man in the house and he's also the type of person who doesn't shows his affection well. < where I got it from

I've always been noticing people and I've got to say, my dad does show his affection silently, without saying it. His "I love you"s goes from bringing us to places, buying essentials, reminding us to be healthy and treating us ridiculously-priced beverages even though he doesn't like the taste of it. He's out working in the morning and the nights are for him to relax after a tiring and grueling day at work. He's been working so hard to be able to support the family and I can't thank him enough for all these years. Introducing me to the world of technology at a young age, I can still remember the first time I got my own desktop computer at the age of 5. All the troubles he had to go through just to see smiles on our faces.

If you came across this post dad, I just want to say that I really do love you. I may not be the best at showing you but please do know that I really do. & thank you for everything



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