hello there x

I know I haven't been blogging as much as i wanted to...
BECAUSE I haven't gotten any spare time to express my feelings and inner thoughts here for the past 4 months, 

I'm not gonna lie, I missed blogger so much. It's my kind of temporary escape from reality, 
School hasn't been great at all, apart from the countless projects & assignments, and not to forget, the amount of pressure school has on me is just indescribable. I never knew that year two would be terrible in comparison to year one. There's just too many differences in this year and last year sigh thank god for kai, nina and nini because w/o them, i wouldn't know what would be left of me after being scarred emotionally, mentally and physically because of school. 

truth be told, nothing new has happened to me or my life. not sure whether i'm supposed to be happy about it or not haha. I haven't been attending tchoukball because I figured it's such a waste of time and energy. 
furthermore, i still felt alone even when i'm surrounded by teenage girls trying their absolute best to catch the ball, in hopes to score goals, and in that moment I realised i'm not suited for that kind of life. 

i'm just at that point where i'll just let nature takes its course and make myself the spectator of my own life. 
Don't know whether it's the good thing to do right now, but let's just see. 

just hope that I wouldn't get hit by the writer's block again (pls) 

love, haz x


update: I need to get new tracks for my music player haha