Oh hey there and welcome to another episode of pretty little liars. Nah I’m kidding (I’m just trying a different way to attract the reader’s attention)

I’m down with week one and I’m really elated that things are going on really smoothly. I had my interview on Wednesday for my appd project and it was okay I guess. It’s my first time doing a pair project by myself and not to forget that was the first time attempting a coding project by myself. Well I did consult help from my teacher and classmates, mind you I’m not a c# goddess.

The campus was more colourful on Thursday and Friday because we were having our annual open house for the graduating students. Personally I felt that the booths this year were kind of boring compared to the year before. Time flies so fast when you least expect it. Looking at all these graduating o level students having fun at the booths reminded me about when I had fun with nad and saj during the open houses last year u.u

Kailee and I were slacking during our two hour break on Thursday and we weren’t really in the mood to eat. Then, we saw people in school holding balloons w/really cute designs so we went to search for the balloon station. We searched high and low for the booth but to no avail :( desperate times calls for desperate measures and we were so determined to get that balloons before our next lesson. So, Kailee asked a random girl holding a balloon and she politely told us the directions. Could have guessed from her directions that she wasn’t a student of SP because she told us the booth was at the top floor of that area (pointing to the stairs at spcc) when the booth was located at the spot outside spcc’s ground level.

Initially, I stood in line not because I wanted the balloon but because I didn’t wanna stand under the hot sun (plus it was drizzling and my laptop’s in my backpack and I’m aint gonna do that to ma baby) but after waiting for so long, why not take the balloon? It’s free and it’s been such a long time since I “played” with a balloon. Sure, it looked ridiculous holding a balloon at this age but yolo.

And so after getting our balloons, we went exploring around the campus. Funny how i'm almost 3/4 done with year one, the places i've frequent these past months are hilltop, t17, mac, spgg (hardly now) and auditorium. We walked to the engineering blocks and wandered everywhere just to kill time. it's nice to spend time walking aimlessly with kai. We brought along our balloons to our classes and well, the balloons demanded attention........so the balloon bearers got the attention too lol. not to forget, i've finally met my tumblr friend, Khadijah, who i've followed for years for the first time in SP!! yay to another internet irl friend :D 

After a “productive” time during gen ed (and lots of disagreements), I headed home with kai, talking and gossiping. on the way back home, I wanted to get myself something to distress and there I went to the library. The day ended with an unforgettable walk back home, not forgetting the surprise thank you so much x

I was equally as busy yesterday as I was on Thursday :-( the day started rough when I took such a long time to get ready for school and ended up getting an earful from mum and was having a late-or-not journey to school and I lost my stud and my necklace broke. So much to take in a few hours *sobs quietly*  I could literally hear myself say are you kidding me as soon as I entered the classroom when I got to know that there were less than 10 students in the class. Obviously my lecturer couldn’t do his activities when there are half of the students are not present. (the module I had was group-related and two of my group mates weren’t there) It felt as though time was taking its own sweet time and I was dreading all of the lessons I had yesterday.

During break, we didn’t really felt like eating so we sat and observed the people walking to and fro at the auditorium. There were obviously some people who mistaken the campus as town lol and me and kai had so much fun dissing their outfits and complimenting some really good  outfits. Sabrina came down to campus with her friend and I brought her to the booths and honestly I didn’t know what to show her hahaha. It’s been a year since the last time we last met and I missed her so much ㅠㅠㅠ

At night, I went to amy’s house for her birthday surprise, along with my sister, nurina, insyirah, muslihin and fatin. Unfortunately, amy arrived before me and nurina got there but she didn’t know that we were coming. I’m just glad and blessed that I was able to celebrate amy’s special day with her and her close friends hehe. I got to talk to amy’s mum yesterday too after years of not seeing her. We took pictures and gave presents and the day ended by bidding farewell to amy and taking the bus ride home.

These two days been really exhausting and I’ve yet to replenish my energy. I hope the next few weeks wouldn’t be this tiring. Am looking forward to next Monday’s ptn lunch @ sakura w/dearest classmates!!! 

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the first day of school was pretty much what I had in mind, but even better. I was actually looking forward to school no matter how boring it was because I aimed to end this school year on a high note. I guess that’s where I got the positive vibe$ from.

It’s just so typical of me to tell myself to get out of the house at this certain timing so that I’ll have ample time to reach school without the fear of being late but ended up taking more time than I need to, which results to me panicking (which is not a good thing duh) I was rushing to get to school because I don’t wanna be those “first day of school but still late” kind of students, and so there goes my epic race to school.

It was pretty strange when I saw most of my classmates standing outside of the classroom.

My dbms lecturer was one who never fails to arrive earlier than his students, so I knew something was fishy. After the 20-minute mark, there was no sign of him and we grew impatient. A few minutes after that, a man walked to our classroom, unlocked it and told us to get into class.

Settling down, he told the class that he would be replacing the previous lecturer and will take over this class from this term onwards. Honestly I felt like jumping and twirling and throwing confettis everywhere because I never liked the way the previous lecturer “taught” us, so to speak. The way this current lecturer introduces himself gives off the vibe that he is passionate about teaching. Furthermore, I felt that the change was good as dbms is one of the more important modules and I’ve yet to grasp it fully.

For the first time ever during dbms lesson, I was motivated to know this module. This lecturer started off the lesson by recapping the basics, and then proceeded with giving us back our mst papers. Surprisingly, I did well for the test which was good news for me and it became my boost hehe

It’s just the first day of school but I’m really exhausted but it’s okay, I know I’ll pull through.

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It’s gonna be a new term in a few more hours and everything goes back to square one.

I need that boost to keep me going ahead. Lately, I’ve been feeling quite unmotivated and sad because of all the things that are happening concurrently. I bet I’ll be greeted by my test papers tomorrow at school. This time round, I’m accepting the results I get with an open mind because the modules this time round are much more difficult to grasp and understand. Nobody likes to sit for a paper when they know they are lacking in knowledge in that particular module/chapter/exam/subject (feel free to circle the applicable one).

I know for damn sure that there are gonna be more conflicts and misunderstandings (prove me wrong bitches) but I’m so done with pleasing everyone. One of my New Year resolutions is to end year one on a high note. Speaking of year one, I need to kick all of my bad habits that I’ve “generated” and “created” for these past few months in school. For example, reblogging awesomely cool posts on tumblr, playing tetris battle during that oh-so boring database management lessons and zoning out in the middle of a boring lecture. But that doesn’t mean I can’t update my blog *winks

Hoping that I’ll be able to throw away, or at least, avoid all those negative thinking and negative vibes and I must plant my mother’s golden rule in me: “Always think positive no matter how difficult the situation is.”

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I think I may have picked the wrong choice.

I was to decide on whether I should study based on my future or study based on my interest. Every year one DIT student would have to rank the electives they want to study for year two. We were given 5 electives, each with their own pros and cons. Right now, I’m having second thoughts on my chosen elective for year two because I doubt I’ll be able to enter a prestigious university here in Singapore with my lacklustre gpa. I took dsal, which largely focuses on coding, coding and lots of coding. I’m a big fan of html/css and graphic design and was distraught when I had to pick between the two. I knew dsal is a key for university admissions and exemptions which is a big help for my future but at the same time, I wanted to explore my creative side and I knew user interface design would assist me with that. However, it is kind of redundant if I were to pick UID as an elective because I was told by my teacher that I’ve got a core module which is similar to user interface design.

But judging from the estimated gpa cut off points for university, I think it’s pretty impossible to enter NUS when I’m struggling with my course. I’m left with a few weeks before my next exams and I’m feeling really scared and unmotivated. True, I probably shocked everyone (I guess so) when I told them I wanted to study information technology in polytechnic and I am certainly hoping I’m not gonna shock them again (with bad news).

I can’t do much about my future elective because it’s just a small portion compared to the other nine core modules I’ll be taking on next year insyaAllah. All I can do now is study well and constantly remind myself that my parents should have a reason to be proud of me J

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