Still can't wrap my head around the fact that we'll be welcoming a new decade in a couple of hours' time. Twelve months passed and it's very easy for me to say that this year was a rather stagnant year for me. Scrolling through Instagram and looking at everyone share the successes they had this year makes me determined to make 2020 a better year for myself.

No doubt, I risked a stable career to take on a different path for myself in hopes of upgrading the skills that I have. Kind of blew in my face, not because I failed miserably in the field, the environment I landed myself in wasn't as productive or progressive as I wished it would, despite all the empty promises they made. Leaving empty-handed, I found the light at the end of the tunnel as I successfully completed my one-year specialist diploma course.

To be frank, juggling work, night studies (and at that point of time, dating) was really tough at first as I find myself burning out ever so frequently. This happened during early 2018 - early 2019, so there were a couple of events that happened before I met R. Alhamdulillah, things worked well eventually for me as I reduced my burdens and focused on more important things in my life. Alas, after a year of hustling, I completed my specialist diploma.

With this newfound confidence, I mustered all my courage to apply for jobs that are out of my comfort zone and after much waiting,  I managed to find an environment that is willing to guide me and allow me room for progress. Another high for me this year was my love life - it's true when they say it's worth the wait. He's one funny guy and always have tricks up his sleeves. It's not always rainbows and sunshine when it comes to us, but we always tell ourselves to talk our problems through, no matter how much it could hurt the other person. It's been a year with him and I'm proud of where we are right now and wishing for bigger milestones in the next year.

Probably another good thing that happened to me was getting  my first 10K views on my youtube video! Guess all that editing and lilit was not in vain at all. You can watch my video below, I've added it here for ease, and while you're at it, do like and subscribe to see more of my videos #selfpromo #nohate


I'm pointing out the highs I've had this year but I'd have to admit there are more lows than highs. Will not discredit the lows because it helped me grow into a better person, I hope.

With the new year, I truly wish that everyone finds their happy ever after and experience more amazing memories with the people they love. Written a couple of goals for myself for the new year and I hope that at the end of 2020, I'd be able to look into the planner and cross out every single goal.