Hello lovelies.
This isn't the normal way I used to write my end-of-year posts because I'm typing all this in 2019. Sorry for this delay as we went on an impromptu movie night with Aquaman a few hours before the new years.
With everything that happened in 2017, I went into 2018 with little to almost no expectations at all, given that I went through so many downs. In fact, I actually accomplished quite a fair bit and I didn't even realise it.
2018 was the year for myself to nurture as another upgraded version of myself, I believe. I crossed a year of donning the hijab (all praises to Allah), took up a specialist diploma in a relatively new path that I didn't think I'd fall in love with, quit my job after 2+ years and the biggest being, switching career paths. Truth be told, I was on edge and extremely anxious with all the big changes that happened last year, but thankfully all of it was worth it.
I crossed out quite a number of my new year's resolutions in 2018, which is a remarkable feat, given that I was trying to prove to myself that I can achieve so much more if I set my goals right.
One of them was to travel with my parents - we went on a short trip to Batam last August, along with Azzah and her parents. Granted, I would have wanted to go further but that was more than enough at that point of time. Another one was finally attending a concert - was blessed to attend not only one, but for two of my favourite groups, Monsta X and Seventeen. God knew how much I would have wanted to attend other concerts before but I was always thinking about the amount I would have to spend. Alhamdulillah, last year I managed to save up quite a bit so that I could splurge on concert tickets for both my sister and myself.
Looking through my instagram feed, I can't help but be proud of the events that happened over the year. From meeting my favourite Malay actor Aiman Hakim, to being casted in a Suria telemovie, to being invited for Adrianna Yariqa's anniversary party + new line launch.
Despite all that, there were instances where I had to be strong and fend for myself, when it comes to dating. I was talking to this guy I knew back in secondary school and I thought he could be a good person for me. Turns out, things went awry and I had to step away from all of that. I did learn a thing or two after those awful encounters, and I hope that nothing like this would happen in 2019.
Indeed, 2018 was an amazing year for me and I am eternally grateful for it. My mum, dad and lil sister are much happier and are in the pink of health and that is enough to make me happy. Because as long as they are happy, I am.
Whilst bidding goodbye to 2018, I'm also saying goodbye to people who treat me lesser than how I treat them, as well as people who are out to bring unnecessary trouble or drama into my life. I admit, sometimes my actions, words or attitude might not be the best at times but if you truly know me, you wouldn't be bothered by it. I am done with people who expects me to clean up their personal mess, when I have my own personal mess too. I apologise in advance to anyone who might feel that I've hurt them in any way, and for them to move on from whatever they're feeling. I too will need to remove any ill feelings I have in the past so that I can move on to be a better Haziqah.
If there's one thing I'd want to do more in 2019, it'll definitely be to progress in life without being worried about other people and their own timelines. I'm excited for the new year and to break more personal achievements for myself and for my family. I'm also excited for new beginnings (In sha Allah) and to be more happy. Also hoping that this year would finally be the year that I bring home a suitable boyfriend so that I can show off to my parents, god willing.
No matter how your 2018 went by, I hope that 2019 will be splendid for both you and I. Happy New Years and may the odds be ever in your favor.
With love, Haz
