Well, hi.
This month hasn't been going too well but fuck it, I can't always have good months only right? tonight's been one of those weak nights again. Kept thinking about things that I shouldn't and wouldn't. I don't know why but it's been a really hectic week. Been so drained out mentally and physically and it's taking a toll onto my health. Getting headaches at work, hoping that it'll be gone with a night's rest. Nope, still getting them.
Don't know what's gotten to me this week. I don't think it's just me but why do I have the feeling that I'm being forgotten? Like everyone else is advancing with their lives but apparently I'm still here doing the same mundane routine every single day. It has come to a point where I have absolutely nothing new to do. Don't get me wrong, I am totally fine with doing the same thing over and over again but sometimes, I wish that I'd have something or someone new in my life to look forward to.
I know it's bad to compare based on surface level but I can't help but wonder, am I really the only one who feels this way? I want to explore new places and be with new people too........make new memories, throw the bad ones away, but all I find myself doing is here, being selectively social. I don't know how to make the first move.
Honestly, I believe as long as the people I love are happy, it makes me happy too.
Lately, I've been thinking that this phrase isn't as meaningful as it was back in the days.
I really don't know anymore.
Excited for tomorrow to end so that I can have my weekends again, lounging in the comforts of my own room. Thanks for always letting me release my very cluttered thoughts here. When I feel better, let me read this post again to see if it deserves to stay or to keep it in my drafts. Always feel the need to declutter my thoughts if not I'd go through so much overthinking and definitely not up for that.
till next time.
